Maybe

Maybe it was the way he laughed. Maybe it was that hat. All I know is I was smitten. You don’t hear smitten all that often. Its been replaced by so many other adjectives that smitten has become a word of the past. But that’s what I was. His laugh, smile, eyes, and hat made the perfect package.

I knew right away that he would never be mine. Too many girls prettier than I were jonesing after him, and I just wasn’t that well, forward, about my crush. It wasn’t my style. I’d always been taught to wait for the guy to pursue me, which I knew to be right, but was finding it to be more and more difficult with each passing single day.

I hadn’t been in a relationship since Kenny, at least not a real one. I’d had flings, affairs, and good times, but no relationship. I really wanted to be in a relationship, desired to be, thought I needed to be. But God said no. He had something so much better planned for me. “What is it?” I asked. “Just wait and see My beautiful daughter,” He told me. So I’m waiting, still…

And I’ll continue to wait until…

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